作词 : RT Jonny
作曲 : RT Jonny
The greatest fear in my life is to live forever
Contemplating suicide, but I’m a survivor
Small kid with big dreams, wanna be a rapper
Then they start to talk, I hate the chit chatters
Uh, the more unconscious the more I can see
When I’m ****ed up, that’s the realest I can be
The more I improve, the more that they hate on me
Say I don’t believe in god, just cuz you can’t read
You don’t understand
I had the pistol by my hand
I wanna pull the trigger, but I know that I can’t
I write my last verse, and I think about my plan
Then I squeeze the trigger, but the ****ing gun jammed
When was the last time I was truly happy?
I can’t think of a day I wasn’t living sadly
Wandering through every road, every alley
Just tryna think of a hook that’s catchy
I put on a smile to cover up my pain
But on the inside I’m going insane
It’s sunny outside, but I’m standing in the rain
And y’all mother****ers still think I do it for the fame
I wake up every day to face this reality
Music for me is like a therapy
Alcohol in my body is my remedy
But I still ask myself, will I ever make a legacy?
All these demons I’m just tryna fight
That’s why I never let go of the mic
**** right or wrong, I just wanna see the light
I’ll never let go, I guess maybe music saved my life
Damn, maybe music saved my life
Damn, maybe music, maybe music saved my life yeah
Maybe music saved my life