Lost (Explicit)

This might be the realest ** I ever wrote

Yeah, yeah

Like why the ** I always feel alone?

I don't know why I always feel alone

Know you cried but I **' tried

You up by my side, I was still alone

Sometimes I miss the way it was

Only okay when I'm off the ***

I ain't been outside, I ain't seen the sun

I've been tryna stay away from everyone

We do not love when we need it most

Run from the truth 'til we see it close

I can never tell what's fake or real

Your love haunts me still like I'm seeing ghosts

I know the emptiness of feelin' numb inside

When your heart is breakin', you too numb to cry

So you turn to pills and I know the feeling

You don't wanna live so you'd rather die

But, none of us really wanna die alone

So many times you would cry alone

I can't say I don't think about you

But these feelings are easier to hide than show

Tell me what's love?

I don't get it still

I just need a place where you never feel

Need a place where pain don't exist

So I started asking God if heavens real

Yeah, I don't get it still

I just need a place where you never feel

Need a place where pain don't exist

So I started asking God if heavens real

Yeah, I don't get it still

Need a place where you never feel

Need a place where pain don't exist

So I started asking God if heavens real

Yeah

(Sick of takin' pills,

Sick of spendin' time trying not to feel, yeah

'Cause I'm sick of gettin' high, sick of takin' pills,

Sick of spendin' time trying not to feel, yeah)

'Cause I'm sick of gettin' high, sick of takin' pills,

Sick of spendin' time trying not to feel

Body shakin' lately, I can't keep it still

I need something real, I just wanna feel something

Heart beatin', blood rushin',

I'm sick of trying to feel nothin'

I'm sick of trying to feel nothin'

'Cause I'm sick of gettin' high, sick of takin' pills,

Sick of spendin' time trying not to feel

Body shakin' lately, I can't keep it still

I need something real, I just wanna feel something

Heart beatin', blood rushin',

I'm sick of trying to feel nothin'

I'm sick of trying to feel nothin', yeah