作词 : Nitro9teen
作曲 : Syndrome
Rainy day drivin on the lane with myself like I always.
Window shield vipers just swing infront of my face.
See a 100 on my dash board today I don't wanna race.
Bumpin quiet inside in my car lipsing with Andy Tubman.
Those trees pass by me I even let those cars overtakes me.
Where's the road rage alright just let it vanish.
And the sky goes grey again like it's a reaction to something.
Almost drivin with closed eyes cuz I fear his coming.
What is coming I know is my demon my nightmare.
Something I been trying to get rid of but I've never succeed at it.
I can't even see it so I never get the chance to face it.
Just like batman tryna catch the invinsible without white cement.
But also I treat it like an opponent for my whole life.
You can't force a new guy to kill apelion at the first met.
It can easily blow my mind take control of my mind.
Fighting back by punching the air like a brain damaged man.
Sometimes it's like a hand strangle my neck about to take my breath.
Then it turning into a prison locks me down I can't escape from that.
Sometimes it's like jokers famous weapon they call it smile gas.
How can I get through it when the lightning's still on strike.
It makes fun of me humiliated me and it torches me.
when it see me screwed up it gonna crack a fvckin smile at me.
It makes me go crazy go insane go super extreme.
Swallowin paroxytine is my only way to stop this.
The enemy can't understand it after I watch it at the first time.
It's just like Jake Gyllenhal versus another same looking guy.
But I turn on my phone watch it again on the other night.
Step infront of the window a giant crawler get in my sight.
It made of my thoughts of letting people down.
Don't tell me it's just a imagination I do see it in my town.
Put a mask on as a protection but never a fvckin clown.
To all the people that I luv this mess is coming from deep down.
Now I'm gonna talk something that I have never talk about.
I do know I got problem I shouldn't impact somebody else.
Believe me I'm not trippin I been tryin to find a way out.
And all thses crap that I done just for getting help for myself.
Mom I really wanna apologize but I can't say it in person.
Stuck with that question with knowing it can't change something.
Noise from downstair our situation is way worse than that.
Blame you blame everybody just because my weakness.
Dad I really wanna hug you but I just can't do this.
We the same type of person so we don't show too much.
Said somebody my role model but how stupid I was.
Cuz you the only role model that I have better than those players.
My XIX 19 just a number of extreme.
I'm illin with everything about you thought it was necessary.
How that I keep picturing those dangerous vision like a coward.
And spittin that venom to you can't believe I became this lame.
Such a good actor to the man in the mirror.
Thanks for the praise I'm gon be good as Aaron Ackhart.
Been a decade I really think that I should be in the arkham.
Maybe not cuz they will not give me my pen and my phone charge.