BROCKHAMPTON - TONYA
And mother I am sorry I never pick up mm-hmm
Because I'm afraid to disappoint ooh ooh-ah ooh no
Hey and I've been feelin' like
I don't matter how I used to
Hey and I've been feelin' like
I don't matter how I used to
We were sat outside on the hardwood floor
With our feet in dirt and our hearts in awe
I be losin' sleep thinkin' 'bout missed calls
And I see the names circling our thoughts
And I think about if we lose it all
And I turn to sh*t that you'd never want
Like the smoke the drink anything at all
And I'll say again sorry I don't call
There's no money on my mind
But my money or my mind
What's the first to fall
I never wanted this sh*t yeah
Hey and I've been feelin' like
I don't matter how I used to
Hey and I've been feelin' like
I don't matter how I used to
Sometimes it be so spot on it hurts
Like when Auntie couldn't decide
Between going to work or church
I've been in my feelings on an island in the dirt
I feel like brothers lie just so
My feelings don't get hurt
I said I'll try vacation I'll try to run away
I deleted Facebook I'll trade fame any day
For a quiet Texas place and a barbecue plate
I'll switch my place if that's good for you
Is that good for you
My ghost still haunt you my life is I Tonya
A big eyed monster only face to conquer
I hated songs about fame 'cause that stuff meant nothin'
Until them headlines came then first flight I'm stuckin'
And maybe it means nothing
But I have to say I think about you often
And if you want no part with me
I'll walk away I know that I have wronged ya
And maybe it means nothing
But I have to say I think about you often
And if you want no part with me
I'll walk away I know that I have wronged ya
I took a plane to somewhere that I've never been
Too many times without my sister and my brother
Dad or mother by my side but they're in spirit
I always hear it I know they feel it
My mom will always have these dreams
That used to keep her up at night
I smoke to keep them all away
And make use of the time
I'm void of feelin'
The reasons I'm so out of touch now start revealin'
But I'm not ashamed I'm not afraid of who I am
Or how I trust my mental yeah it's not perfect
But I guess that's just the sh*t I'm into
I fantasize about a time when everything was simple
My shelter sheltered me from things
I needed to commit to the way it stands to me
A victim of Stockholm in my friendships and family
What's costin' you time
What's the reason that you whine
What's in your wallet dead whites in mine
So sour in this light of lime
Daddy said study or get that cash
Mommy said your career ain't gon' last
Loose change call a cab move out their pad
I just need a chance to move past my past
Don't think too fast private jets still crash
And I'll still fly coach and I'll still hit a roach
And I'll still see roaches at the crib where my folks at
Touch your dreams 'fore you touch me and provoke a man
Somebody gonna have to tell the truth
And I'm gonna tell it
I'll I don't matter I don't matter
How I how I how I how I
I how I I how I I how I
Can I tell you how
How I how I
Can I tell you how