i had a dream about myself
thought i was someone else and i remember it was a lie
i don't know if i'm alive
there's nothing left to do
so i push my fingers through my skull
and i've never felt so alive
i think i'm ready to die
there must be something that can take
take this pressure from my lungs
i want to crush it in my arms
i want to feel like i can die
nothing to be certain of
so i'm just waiting idly by
i've been waiting all this time
for something that won't arrive