作词:Diizwe
作曲:Diizwe
What do you know bout bloody wrists and blurry nights
With a pain inside your chest like you can feel a knife
never sleeping if you do you’re scared you’ll see the light
Begging god in every prayer that you can change your life
I look back on every day that I had hoped to die and laugh a little cause I couldn't cry even though i've tried
And when I think of all the times I didn't try
My heart breaks and I die a little more inside
And Die a little more inside
So I'm contemplating suicide
But
I don't even wanna die
But
I don't wanna live my life
And Die a little more inside
So I'm Contemplating suicide
But
really i don't wanna die
But
I don't wanna live my life
What do you know bout taking drugs to pass the time
All the time, forgetting what your face looks like every night
I don't wanna fight, I just wanna scream and run and hide
This anxiety poisonous everything I ****in like
All I've ever know is damaged, even the love I've gotten is fake when you understand it
the skin I was gifted had to come with a bandage I can't stand it, at 6 years old I was asking why's life so ****in tragic
Warning signs every time I'm taking acid how am I gonna fix it, if even I can't hack it
Decoding my childhood and every tiny passage
Cause depressions always ravaged every moment every chapter
look
I'm not joking when I said I'm hearing voices and then when I'm in classes I can't even ****in focus
I've gone to hell and back and that't not an exaggeration
I thought I killed my loved ones and all I hold sacred
And Die a little more inside
So I'm contemplating suicide
I don't even wanna die
But
I don't wanna live my life
And Die a little more inside
So I'm contemplating suicide
But
Really I don't wanna die
But
I don't wanna live my life