作词 : 北方网友D1WHY/Siberpunk
作曲 : 北方网友D1WHY/Siberpunk
录制:HPC鱿鱼
混音:WTZ
编曲:Jane beatz production
和声编写:D1WHY
封面:D1WHY
【intro】
Hello, you there? listen
This is not some hypx $hxt
This is not something I'm proud to talk about
because you don' t know what it feels like,It feels like. failure
【Hook】
You said you wanna read what's my real mind
Depression made me wanna suicide
I didnt know what's right cause too many lies
Devil said death or life I couldnt choose
Dont make me drunk and high or waste my time
I wanna go back to a real life
Please don't cover my eyes
I wanna see the shine
【verse 1(D1WHY)】
You got me feeling lifeless
My sadness went to another stage
As if my body was weightless
The major weakness was exploited by bada$$
I always say it's nothingwrong
Through you look down upon me
My heart is like fallen leaf
To be swept away is its destiny
You called my phone said you really know where do I zone.
I'm really tired and i just wanna go home
But it seems to be going a wrong road
I lost myself in the steel jungle
I told you something that I don’t hope so
I don' t wanna lose you
i suspect you know the main fact!
Really: Nope!
It's all that you want and more
I’ve nothing can lost
【verse2 (Siberpunk)】
Sometimes it feels like you drown and
sometimes the whole system broke Down and
sometimes I think everyone's a Clown
And pretending nothings wrong while put that mask on.
Saying, Sorry mom I can't cheer myself up.when the night approached, and darkness fell upon.
Wait, Can you tell Ronny she's my babe
But I fxxked up so hard, so we can't meet this week
god save me from myself never being in the right road
Accusing of making up shxt and assigned the wrong role
Straight up, be brave, all that pep talk
this is not something you can shout out and shoot for
I'm too proud I stayed in the bathroom while my lady cooking
The demon's talking, the neighbors dog forever barking
I'm like no one else but the man I despise
cry under his eyes, didn't stand and put up a fight
Desolation, isolation, wanna fly above
She wxxped and cried, saying"I don't want nothing from you!
I said cut that shxt bxxch leave me alone
You should never say that when you love someone
I get it, but hide yourself in some holes like a fxxking mole,started buried deep
How about try to help your friends in need
God save my soul, Hate to make my mamma sad
Guess I'm doing everybodys favor if it went bang
【Hook】
You said you wanna read what's my real mind
Depression made me wanna suicide
I didnt know what's right cause too many lies
Devil said death or life I couldnt choose
Dont make me drunk and high or waste my time
I wanna go back to a real life
Please don't cover my eyes
I wanna see the shine
【verse 3 (D1WHY)】
repeated confession
A section of my session which fall apart with the affection
I've lost the direction
I can't be flex’in the face of sudden great pressure
eh, ain' t no time to wait
you said that I stayed up all night till daybreak
It made me crazy, I was love sick
The current situation is hard to change
feeling like tape around my heart
That's the worst part
They acted so tough
They called me trash
My world was getting dark
Am I out of touch and not strong enough?
Unwilling to sink down and hate to frown
Day after day, more and more wrong
I dont wanna curl up in a crummy corner
I wanna break it all like a violent thunder
【Hook】
You said you wanna read what's my real mind
Depression made me wanna suicide
I didnt know what's right cause too many lies
Devil said death or life I couldnt choose
Dont make me drunk and high or waste my time
I wanna go back to a real life
Please don't cover my eyes
I wanna see the shine