That Choice

Written by：Stanley Stevenson-Byrne

Just dropped in from the daydream

You know I always gotta cause a big scene

Gotta make everything about me

I've been like this since I was like thirteen

So let me bend your ears while I've got them

What is it you're really trying to run from

I guess that's the thing about problems

While you ignore them then you ain't got none

Oh what a wonderful way to live

Cold magnifying the things I did

I know something's got to give

I wait for the veil to lift

And oh

I'm feeling that choice in the way

I'm feeding that void every day

I'm screaming your voice in my brain

It's more than I can take

And oh

I'm feeling that choice in the way

A little blockade in my brain

Whatever comes next I pray

It isn't more than I can take yeah

Always late to the party

So everybody might look upon me

Show them something better than I might be

Force feed a narrative sell them what they wanna see

Wait maybe that's the way I put the walls up

No one ever gets to get a close up

That's the way illusions get bust up

Life's been a breeze so long as I've kept the front up

Hey don't make me reflect on things

Avoiding it all is an easy win

No way can the loneliness settle in

It's my choice to pretend to be king

And oh

I'm feeling that choice in the way

I'm feeding that void every day

I'm screaming your voice in my brain

It's more than I can take

And oh

I'm feeling that choice in the way

A little blockade in my brain

Whatever comes next I pray

It isn't more than I can take yeah

The person inside underwhelms me

So I pretend I'm something else entirely

A person who's better than me at everything

Rather you know that guy instead of me

It's funny how it took so long to realise

I thought I was alone at trying to live lies

Maybe everyone's a person being hid behind

Would we all be so alone if we empathised

Whoa a depressing epiphany

I know you as long as you let me see

We're both different people way underneath

What happens when those people meet

I don't know

I'm feeling that choice in the way

I'm feeding that void every day

I'm screaming your voice in my brain

It's more than I can take

And oh

I'm feeling that choice in the way

A little blockade in my brain

Whatever comes next I pray

It isn't more than I can take yeah