RIP

I was 16 when the bell on the phone rings

It's my homie from church an ex d**e fiend

A little older wore his heart on his shoulder

A hiphop head so we connected on the totem

Back then I'd kick verses and he'd be on the scrotum

I wish he were around to

Hear these verses that I wrote Him

Just to clear the air

Confusion and misquotings

A good kid with black

Clouds following his motions

Like" hear ye hear ye"

But they don't hear me

The headline I've read for

The tenth time its eerie

"Three dead including

Sunday school teacher

An ex d**e fiend

Turned extroverted church leader"

Is this real my hairs raised suddenly

I'm drowning in emotion

While shivers swim subtly

I read on an affair that ends tragic

Teachers pleads for life

Down the barrel of a magnum

Then point blank shot

Dead together with his lover

Before the lovers husband

Took his own life from him

My eyes turned red

Welled up a watered gaze

From hurt fear and let

Down in lots of ways

God Why would you

Allow this if you save

When evil lurked within

Why did my homie disobey

We got one life is it ok to be afraid

Many don't have that option

Stomping through this maze

It is ok to be afraid many don't have that option

That's so we mourn today

Rest in peace

Here one day then gone away

Forever ever ever ever)

Things will never be the same

It will never be the same)

Here one day Here one day)

Then gone away

Forever ever ever ever)

And all that remain is the pain

I remember her soft skin and her caress

The mistakes that I made and her grace

When I confessed like politics me

And her it was complex but all the stains

Would wash away each time our minds connect

We had history old school like a cassette

Together we opened doors

Explored she knew me best

I imagined us forever ever ever

But now I wish I never met her

Why won't this feeling letup

I can't forget her staring at our empty bed

The silence is screaming at me so

I stay awake instead and in the sheets

There's rooms for extra legs on my phone no SMS

Missed calls or messages from tying the knot

To farewells crying

My stomach twisted up in

Knots like Bear Grylls tied them

The start and end it comes full sphere

From the cradle to the grave

I wish you were here

Here one day

Then gone away

Forever ever ever ever)

Things will never be the same

It will never be the same)

Here one day Here one day)

Then gone away

Forever ever ever ever)

And all that remain is the pain

It's been a little while

Since I seen your face

Getting kinda hard to move on

But the pain is motivation

And I'm doing my job

Running innovation know the song

It's been a little while

Since I seen your face

Getting kinda hard to move on

But the pain is motivation

Though its frustrating

You don't know what you have until it's gone

When it's gone

When it's gone away gone away