Nightmare (Explicit)

I I keep a record of the wreckage of my life

And I realize

I've tasted blood and it is sweet

I've had the rug pulled beneath my feet

I've trusted lies and trusted men

Broke down and put myself back together again

Stared in the mirror and punched it to shatters

Collected the pieces and picked out a dagger

I've pinched my skin in between my two fingers

And wished I could cut some parts off with some scissors

Come on little lady give us a smile

No I ain't got nothin' to smile about

I got no one to smile for I waited a while for

A moment to say I don't owe you a godd**n thing

I I keep a record of the wreckage of my life

I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind

They talk s**t but I love it every time

And I realize

I'm no sweet dream but I'm a hell of a night

No I won't smile but I'll show you my teeth

And I'ma let you speak if you just let me breathe

I've been polite but won't be caught dead

Lettin' a man tell me what I should do in my bed

Keep my exes in check in my basement

'Cause kindness is weakness or worse you're complacent

I could play nice or I could be a bully

I'm tired and angry but somebody should be

Come on little lady give us a smile

No I ain't got nothin' to smile about

I got no one to smile for I waited a while for

A moment to say I don't owe you a godd**n thing

I I keep a record of the wreckage of my life

I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind

They talk s**t but I love it every time

And I realize

Someone like me can be a real nightmare completely aware

But I'd rather be a real nightmare than die unaware yeah

Someone like me can be a real nightmare completely aware

But I'm glad to be a real nightmare so save me

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