indigo (Explicit)

Lyrics by：phem/Colson Baker

Composed by：phem/Colson Baker

Produced by：SlimXX/BazeXX/No Love For The Middle Child/Vincent Ponce/phem/Cesar Alejandro Lozano

Glitter and glue

A perfect night's a nightmare too

I feel so cold vivid blue

Shades of pink and shades of you

Uh this feels like the opposite of real life

On my way to Valhalla on a steel bike

Living fantasy like JK Rowling

I'm JRR Tolkien these spliffs I love smokin'

My hands full of stones and gold

I'm Lord of the Rings needles sewed new clothes

But it's more than it seems I seen dreams implode

Seen teens turn old before they grown

Burnt out before they fade away slow

I used to pick you up now I don't

There's some things I would rewind

But I don't have the remote

There's some things I manifested I wish I never wrote

And all my friends?

Really family 'cause my bloodline's ghost

Yeah it's the life we chose

Highways and hellcats with angel wing doors

I know I look back the path went rogue

I know I look back I'm halfway home

So far away from where you are

Without a 'cause I know I'm fucked up

But I'm not sorry

And I will meet you where you are

Yeah

I make my own luck

Because I don't believe in karma

I stopped countin' my age

Because my face still look the same

So instead of years I use pain

And if that's the case then I'm five hunnid

I been in a race with my trauma can't outrun it

No wonder why I drive like I'm being chased

Pack up and move houses instead of renovate

Put my newborn daughter to bed at eight

Then I'm back on the interstate

Chain-smoking

Lookin' like I'm 'bout to hyperventilate

Got everything to celebrate on the outside

Still none of that eliminates what is inside

And since I've gotta find a way to cope

I start by reversin' some of the words I wrote

Instead of being a demon be a beacon of hope

'Cause one day we're hangin' out

The next day you're hangin' from a rope uh

So far away from where you are

Without a 'cause I know I'm fucked up

But I'm not sorry

And I will meet you where you are

Yeah

I make my own luck

Because I don't believe in karma

La la la la la

La la la

Without a 'cause I know I'm fucked up

But I'm not sorry

La la la la la

La la la

I make my own luck

Because I don't believe in karma

Yeah

This feels like the opposite of real life

Uh

Yeah

This feels like the opposite of real life

Uh

Yeah

Mmmm

Glitter and glue

A perfect night's a nightmare too

I feel so cold vivid blue

Shades of pink and shades of you