Goodnight (Explicit)

I kick flows rip shows think it switched though

Sh*t no it ain't any different when I get home

I shift po to get dough lust p's

If you ain't ever been broke

For you to judge me's an insult

It's my life an I'm living it

Agreed we all have choices but mine limited mostly by my decisions

If I knew then what I knew now I'd a lived live different

I'd be a different me but I didn't so this is me

Me in my position what would you have done

Would you of done what I did Am I what you would become

My guess my guess is you would of succumb like I did

The decision was mine but I was too young

An I picked the wrong path I went the wrong way

Left school then got the grade banged it out got my pape's

Stacked my p's copped a cake I'm holding weight now

Made a brick of a ounce an ain't been in the jailhouse

I intend on staying free free for me don't mean free from stress

Lay in bed but I ain't asleep

From I need rest I just blaze the tree's

Drift off hearing my Nan say to me

Good night God bless

I'll see you in the morning

Good night God bless

I'll see you in the morning

I'm a dreamer but can only dream as

Long as I'm asleep I've been having trouble sleeping

See Nanny Edie ain't here to say goodbye no more

I had to say goodbye to her inside is where resides the hurt

Now all I feel is pain after that nothingness

After that Nothing since after that there's nothing left

Some of her last words were I can't fight forever

Like she wanted to give up an of life she was fed up

She had to go but I wanted her to stay

Cause ever since she left things haven't been the same

I need a new shelter from the rain

My face looking weathered a facety looking bredder I'm fed up

I know not what to do

See I'd love to say that I don't give a f**k but I do

The gift an curse that I'm blessed with

The pressures on road ain't nothing to the emotions that I wrestle with

Stress got me in a figure four raw is what I'm thinking

I wonder what I'm living for

Is it only to hurt First my great nan

Now I gotta put my dad in the dirt

Back in the earth I wished we could have patched it up first

I was so angry though I just couldn't handle the hurt

Now your in the back of a hurse

It hurts more than it ever did

Sometimes I wish that I had never lived

Feels as if it would have been better if I never did live

I don't know how I'm ever gonna get through this sh*t

I swear down blood I'm runnin on empty

My life ain't nothing to be envied

So goodnight