God (Explicit)

I wish I could just be honest

Wish I didn't have to lie

Just wish I would've kept that promise

When I'm starin' at the mirror

I just don't see myself inside it

Wish I could go back in time

Get through high school

And go to college

But I just can't now

And I could never turn around

I let my fam down

It's funny everybody sayin'

You the man

Now

But no matter what size of these bank withdrawals

It'll never take away the pain I caused

'Cause yeah

I've been unfaithful

God

At times I've been ungrateful

God

And

At my lowest points

I went as far sayin'

I hate you

God

And nothin' is okay right now

No one feels my pain right now

If I didn't have my team

I would've blew out my f**kin' brains by now

But I'm just hopin'

Yeah

But I'm just hopin'

Yeah

I'm just hopin'

Yeah

I've been unfaithful

God

At times I've been ungrateful

God

And

At my lowest points

I went as far sayin'

I hate you

God

And nothin' is okay right now

No one feels my pain right now

If I didn't have my team

I would've blew out my f**kin' brains by now

But I'm just hopin'

Yeah

I'm just hopin'

I'm just hopin' someone cares

Yeah

I'm just hopin' someone's there

Yeah

I've been ungrateful

God

Yeah

I've been unfaithful

God

Yeah

I'm a liar

I'm a cheater

I'm a sinner

I'm on fire

And I drink 'til my blood gets thinner

I'm an addict

I'm a loser

I'm a quitter

And I take what isn't mine

So how you figure

Anyone would love me

I can't even love myself

So many broken hearts

But I couldn't tell you one I've felt

I guess I'm just numb to the pain

And everytime someone gets close to my heart

I just end up runnin' away

Away

'Way

'Way

I guess I'm just numb to the pain

I guess I'm just numb to the pain

'Cause I just end up runnin' away

Yeah

I guess I'm just numb to the pain