Five

I want to watch the universe expand

I want to break it into pieces, small enough to understand

And put it all back together again

In the quiet of my private collection

It feels like an out of body experience

Something gets lost from a safe distance

And now I can't put my mind to rest

And I can't help but second guess

Living behind this one-way mirror

I'm hypnotized by this anomaly

Such strange uncharted territory

A white flag waves in the dark between my head and my heart

My armor falls apart

As if I could let myself be seen, even deeply known

Like I was already brave enough to let go

And now I want to generously lose

This energy that I've been hanging onto so desperately

I finally feel the universe expand

It's hidden in heartbeats, exhales

And in the hope of open hands