Father (Explicit)

The smell of your breath it makes me sick

Your naked body lying on the floor

I want to kill you but you did it yourself

You killed my innocence

You drunken f**k

I hate you

I piss on your grave and curse your memory

I was always there in the family hell

I was in your way and you hit me

You cut your wrists and jumped from the 4th floor

I was the last one who saw you alive

I hate you

I damage you

I bury you

I kill you

I wish you would have been there to watch me grow

Guiding me with wisdom love and patience

Telling me that you love me and showing it to me

Making this world a safe place to be

You hurt me so much that I don't know

If I'm ever gonna be whole

But I want you to know that I'm gonna try

Still after all that you did I miss you

And the rose and the letter that I brought to your grave

Tells you about my longing

So I say goodbye to you now after 23 years

You were just a moment of my life and I got to continue

Maybe one day I will be able to forgive you

Until then goodbye