Disappear (Explicit)

Daddy I've been thinkin' about you lately

Mama's never here

And step daddy hates me

He drinks a lot it makes him so mean

Mama always screams

And it gives me bad dreams

Today I dropped my bowl of s'ghetti on the floor

I didn't mean to make a mess

I tripped on one of my toys

I tried to clean it up really I tried

But I just made it worse

So I went to my room to hide

I knew if Benny saw it

I'd be in so much trouble

I didn't want to but I did

And the thought of gettin' hit scared me

So I didn't tell him

Benny saw it he took off his belt and I know

You know he hit me with it

Then he pushed my face in to the carpet

Where the s'ghetti spilted

But I forgive him though

I love you daddy I guess I gotta go

There's a moth on my window seal

And it came to die alone

Through the pain of the pouring rain

I gaze into the storm

And I imagine I'm the son of a man

Who will hold me close and near

With these bruises on my face I cry

While I pray to disappear

Disappear disappear disappear disappear

Disappear disappear disappear

Daddy are you there

I know you're probably busy of working somewhere

Helpin' somebody build a house

Or somethin' neat

You told me what you did

Carpentry right

Man that's so cool daddy

I really miss you

So much that I would kiss you

Yeah even front of my friends

I guess you know I'm gettin' sick again

I've been throwin' up

I haven't been playin' much

I missed a lot of school this week

But I'm tough

I'll make it you know me daddy

I don't get what I want most of the time

But I'm patient

Hey if you get a second

Maybe tomorrow you could come by

Just to check in

Because my babysitter's crazy

Mama don't believe me

But she makes me get naked

And I'm embarrassed so I hide it

I'm tellin' you because you know my heart

And what's inside it

I gotta go to sleep but don't turn off the lights

I love you daddy or should I say Christ

Should I say Christ

I gotta go to sleep but don't turn off the lights

I love you daddy or should I say Christ

There's a moth on my window seal

And it came to die alone

Through the pain of the pouring rain

I gaze into the storm

And I imagine I'm the son of a man

Who will hold me close and near

With these bruises on my face I cry

While I pray to disappear

Disappear disappear disappear disappear

Disappear disappear disappear

When the weeping willow tree

Sways from the breeze

I float away

To the end of the world to the moon

To the stars

To the heavens where I'm safe

I'm a child not a prey

I'm an angel enslaved

I'm a life I'm a world

I'm a rose put to waste

Wake me up let me live let me breathe

Let me breathe

Give me love give me soul

Give me guidance give me peace peace peace peace

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