Dear Old Nicki (Explicit)

Maybe you died cuz everybody ask me where you at

I try to channel you in hopes that I could stare you back

But its like every intersection we just missed each other

You got your fans waitin tell me you ain't 6 feet under

And tell me that you coming back that you just to a break

Maybe I blamed you for everything that was my mistake

In hindsight I loved your rawness and I loved your edge

Cuz it was you who talked me down from jumpin off the ledge

Your earings bamboo your long nails too

Your BMW everytime you came through

You was the braveheart

You stole wayne heart

You never switched it up

You played the same part

But I needed to grow

And I needed to know

That there were somethings inside of me that I need to show

So I just deaded you

Left you in all black

But damn old nicki

Please call back

You told me you'd come when I needed you

And you said it so sweetly I really knew

But I'm standing here calling I can't see you

But I am holding you holding you holding you to that

Yo did I chase the glitz and glamour

Money fame and power

Cuz if so that will forever go down my lamest hour

I shoulda kept you with me gettin at them nameless cowards

There was no match for you couldn't defeat your prowess

I had to make them changes I hope you understood

You see for every bad I did a ton of good

But you was underground and I was mainstream

I live the life now that we would daydream

My only wish is you come enjoy it with me

Get on them conference calls go meet them lawyers with me

The money came yea tripled and quadrupled it

But I still miss us when we was on some stupid ****

But its still **** the media

They ridiculed you never believed in ya

They just deaded you

But dear old nicki

You told me you'd come when I needed you

But I am holding you holding you holding you to that

And yes I'm holdin you holdin you holdin you

Oh yes I'm holdin you holdin you holdin you

To that