Be Happy (Explicit)

I spent my whole life dreaming up

Some perfect world but now I'm stuck

These words I sing for the ones I love

Draw a line that define the best in us

With every note and every page

I'm cleaning up each mess I make

Is there some way for me to prove that

I won't bring out the worst in you

Can anyone else relate

I should be happy but I'm not

Is there a way to make it stop

It won't go away it keeps haunting me

As colors fade I start to change

I only have myself to blame 'cause

I should be happy but I'm not

Can anyone else relate

I saw the light when I was young

I always knew that I would be someone

But I fall short and I ****ed things up

And now I'm paying for the things I've done

I can't escape the feeling

Now I'm staring at the ceiling while I waste away

Could better off alone might be better on my own

But I know I'm not okay 'cause

I should be happy but I'm not

Is there a way to make it stop

It won't go away it keeps haunting me

As colors fade I start to change

I only have myself to blame 'cause

I should be happy but I'm not

Can anyone else relate

Can't escape the feeling

Now I'm staring at the ceiling while I waste away

Might be better off alone I'd be better on my own

But no I'm not okay

I'm not okay

As colors fade I start to change

I only have myself to blame

As colors fade I start to change

I only have myself to blame

I should be happy but I'm not

Is there a way to make it stop

I should be happy but I'm not

Is there a way to make it stop

It won't go away it keeps haunting me

As colors fade I start to change

I only have myself to blame 'cause

I should be happy but I'm not

I should be happy but I'm not

So kill the pain and make it stop

Can anyone else relate

Can anyone else relate

Can anyone else relate

Just make it stop