Before - John Howard/The Night Mail
Written by:Robert Rotifer
You watched them breeding with each other
As you sit like any other day here on your own
You have another cigarette another coffee
Then you pay the bill and wander home
You fill the vases with fresh flowers
Check the linen take a shower
And spray on your best colone
Arrange the photos of you hanging out with people
That you can't believe you've ever known
And somewhere it must be somewhere
There is the flicker of a thought that memories are not enough
There may have been the kind of stuff that he called love
But like all memories it never is enough
The rain is falling like confetti at that long forgotten wedding day
From which you took flight
Oh how you smoke great do*e till dawn and lay on the lawn
By the moonlight
And somewhere it must be somewhere
There is the flicker of a thought that sweet revenge might compensate
Those hours staring at the clock while you sat waiting for the knock
It was already too late
And somewhere it must be somewhere
There is the remnant of a dream of the plans beyond your door
When no one knows you anymore cause like those remnants you are faded
Into before
Before you gave up laughing
Before the world was frightening
Before you were the one everybody never sees
Before you couldn't leave here
Before you had a new name
Before you were the one who could never freeze
Before this was your life
Before this was your end
Before your friends wondered where you are
And how you are
And who you are
Before you couldn't answer anymore
About anything that happened
Before