a shade of light is flashing
by the eyes as the lies
are poring out
and with a stupid voice
I try to explain this
how I failed
increasing steps
of conscience made by fear
I am running from it all
I hide away the things
I learned to love for this
everytime I'm there
I fall
a side of me
I can't face
a side of me
I can't face
this type of disgrace I curse
a side of me
I can't face
a side of me
I can't face
living the way
of life I know
a side of me
I can't face
a side of me
I can't face
to find a way
to retreat from you
a side of me
I can't face
a side of me
I'm not what you expected
but at least I'm free
from your know how's
release release me
from myself to improve
improve habits
the way I am supposed
to see you is gray shades
of the way I hate you
all the wrongs
I did in my life
I promise I did them
for you
everytime I'm there
I fall
a side of me
I can't face
a side of me
I can't face
this type of
disgrace I curse
a side of me
I can't face
a side of me
I can't face
living the way
of life I know
a side of me
I can't face
a side of me
I can't face
to find a way
to retreat from you
a side of me
I can't face
a side of me
I can't face
hail to those
who forgive themselves
for tearing down
their near in fear