And The Sun Pissed Red - The Cumshots
I've been good for weeks now
I'm telling ya I'm in control
I've got my sh*t together I know
When I should fold
It's just tonight nothing at all to fear
You'll be with me all the time it's not like
I could run off anywhere
I go right home but I won't be alone
A thousend in cash and a mobile phone
I don't know how I'll stop
I sure can't tell you when
I am lost in that whirpool again
Don't think I'll ever stop
Can't see a reason why
Only dying makes me feel feel alive
It's that constant burden of
Trying to make it bearable
When my life is so f**ked up
And so far from reparable
That make me look for that
Final nail for my coffin
It's way past midnight but
I find hundreds in the nothing
The same lies I've told everybody
Including myself a hundred times
I go right home I won't be alone
A thousend in cash and a mobile phone
I don't know how I'll stop
I sure can't tell you when
I am lost in that whirpool again
Don't think I'll ever stop
Can't see a reason why
Only dying makes me feel alive
I don't know how I'll stop
I sure can't tell you when
I am lost in that whirpool again
Wide awake I never went to bed
Naked by the window
And the sun is pissing red
My hands look rusty
Guess my nose has bled
Then I remember
What my father said what he said
I don't know how I'll stop
I sure can't tell you when
I am lost in that whirpool again
Don't think I'll ever stop
Can't see a reason why
Only dying makes me feel alive