This Time

Vanessa Carlton - This Time

It’s 4 am and im wide awake

waiting for the thoughts to fade

i flick a ring of all of my mistakes

and as the light starts creeping in

i slowly feel

the day im missing

but i wont even know where to begin

do i push too hard

i fall too fast

a moment never seems to last

and will i stop long enough to know

cos everybody burns

and when it starts to hurt

i cry

i feel it in my veins

i just cant walk away, this time.

your words circle in my head

and weigh so heavy on my chest

and im crushed by your expectation

i only want to do some good

to dumb to know if i could

and i just wanna feel the days i’m in

and do i go too far

not far enough

why cant i keep my big mouth shut and do

and lead the life that we should

and everybody burns

and when it starts to hurt i cry

did i say too much again?

im just a girl in a panic

if i tell you my truth

am i getting through?

and it just seems i should confess

who am i to pretend?

this is more than i can carry

i hold my head up high

i know ill be alright, this time.

i just cant walk away this time.

this time

its 4 am and im wide awake

waiting for my thoughts to fade

and its time like these i see your face